Vulnerability

Vulnerability can be a pretty scary thing. To open up and share things that are so very personal to you, in front of others whom you have no idea how they will react…well, it’s very hard to do! But, it can also be just the thing your audience needs to hear!

Vulnerability means sharing our deepest hurts, wounds, scars, pain, in order to help others. For me, it sometimes freezes me with fear! I begin to panic; then I want to run! But, then I remember that God put me in this place, and if He put me here, He will get me through it. You see, my vulnerability isn’t about ME. It’s about how HE pulled me through some of the toughest times in my life!

It’s about how He pulled me through the pain that I had hidden for so many years! It’s about how He has freed me from the wounds, emotionally and physically. It’s about a freedom that I never knew existed, until I gave my life to Him.

Now, yes, it’s still hard to be vulnerable in front of others; but only if I think my sharing is about ME. But, when I focus on HIM, my vulnerability becomes a flashing sign that says “JESUS SAVES & HEALS”!!

So, before you share something about your life that puts you in a vulnerable state, ask yourself why you are sharing it. Is it to give God glory for everything He has done for you, in every aspect of your life? Is it to tell others that Jesus can set them free, break the bondage they are in, and cause them to see and feel things they’ve never seen or felt before?

If you can answer YES to the above questions, then I give you a great BIG HALLELUJAH, Sister!! BE VULNERABLE! Share JESUS with others! Shout Him from the rooftops! Because whom the Son sets free is free indeed! Don’t be afraid to tell others about this freedom! It can be so life-changing for them, and for you!

John 8:36 NIV – So, if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

Until next time,

BE BLESSED!

Living Life Fearlessly

In 2 Timothy 1:7, it says that God has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love, and a sound mind. A sound mind comes only from leaning into Him and staying in His word.

I’m so thankful for missionaries who spread the Gospel to those who have never heard of God! Before I learned who God really was my life was a mess! An absolute mess! I was drinking, smoking dope, and running around on my then husband. I had no clue what it meant to have a “relationship” with God.

I grew up only going to church for weddings, funerals, Easter, and Christmas. I did, however, have a step-grandmother who took me to church with her when I was ten years old. I heard message after message, but didn’t really know what it meant to have a relationship, you know what I mean? I thought God was amazing! He was powerful, and He could get really mad at you if you screwed up!

So, when my life was so screwed up, I never thought in a million years that God could even want to be a part of my life! I had friends who invited me to church many times, but I always kept saying “I don’t need that crap”. That embarrasses me today to admit that! But, it’s the truth.

Today, I have a relationship with Jesus Christ. I know what it means now. He is always with me, directing my path, comforting me when I need it, guiding me, helping me, and being there when I need Him. He has never let me down; even when I let Him down. I read my Bible often and wonder how in the world God could have chosen someone like me! I screw up every day. I lose my temper. I whine and complain about stupid things that really don’t even matter. I let people down.  How could He want me as His child? Because He Loves Me … just the way I am!

I don’t have to pretend with Him. I don’t have to hide behind a mask. He knows me, inside and out. He knows my every thought, and deed; and He still loves me! I am so thankful for His love, grace, and mercy. Even a screw up like me can be His child!

Have you wondered how God could ever accept someone like YOU? I know how you feel. I would love to talk to you about it. You can email me HERE, if you ever want to talk.

God is a BIG God. He does not have favorites. He does not condemn. He LOVES YOU so much that He sent His only Son to die for you! Let that sink in for a bit. Really meditate on that. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done; or are doing now. Just ask Him! It’s time to let the fear of God go! It’s time to live life fearlessly, as He wants you to!

Let’s Get Free Together!

 

1 John 1:9 

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

 

Girl, Step Out of the Boat!

I don’t admit this often, but I am a very insecure person. I can hide it well with a beautiful, warrior-type mask; but overall, I am pretty shy and insecure.

I admit that only because I know there are many more out there who are like me. You hide behind that same beautiful mask that only allows others to see the person you want them to see. Lord only knows what they would think of you if you were to be your true-self, right? That’s what I have thought for far too many years!

I’ve been listening to personal development authors, like Rachel Hollis, Levi Lusko, Sharon Jaynes, and more, for years!  I’ve read books by the millions on personal development, how to be your true self, how to believe you are enough. They all fit me to a T when I read them, but then something happens after I’m done with the book, or listening to the podcast or video. I begin to allow the lies of the enemy to sink in; I’m not smart enough to be a writer; who would ever come and listen to me if I were to get a speaking engagement, I don’t have enough followers on my blog, or Facebook Speaker/Writer page, etc. etc. etc.

Then just today someone posted a question on Facebook that asked if you had ever wanted to write a book. I responded ME. Her comment back to me was “You’ve always wanted to write a book since I’ve known you. Are you ever going to do it?” It was the “are you ever going to do it” that hit me….hard! Yea, Christi, are you ever going to do it?? What is stopping you? Why are you waiting? What fears are you facing? Will you ever get beyond those fears and actually do it?

Those questions hurt. The answer to all of them is of course, yes! So what is stopping me? I AM STOPPING ME! I am the only one stopping me! And it’s time I got out of the boat and faced my fears, and did something I’ve always wanted to do…write a book!

So, I’ve decided to start here by sharing some of the topics I would write about…when I do write my book! Topics like, living fearlessly, are you a victim or a victor, do you really believe that you are enough? … and so many more.

Today, I’m stepping out of the boat; just as Peter did when he saw Jesus walking on the water. I am going to take His hand and walk the path that I have known for a long time the Lord has wanted me to take. I’m no longer going to allow fear to stop me from doing what I love!

What have you always wanted to do, but fear has stopped you from doing it? Will you join me today, and face this fear together with me?

Let’s Get Free Together!

 

Romans 8:37 – But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us.

2 Timothy 1:7 – For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of a sound mind.

The War on Shame and Guilt

It can come on suddenly, out of nowhere. The shame and guilt of my past will hit me like a ton of bricks. I am sternly reminded of the awful things I did in my early years BC (before Christ).

The shame and guilt can be so strong, it’s like a cancer that just won’t go away! I am sickened by the things I did. Even though I am a born-again, sin-forgiven, unrighteousness-cleansed, woman of God, I still struggle with the shame and guilt, at times in my life!

As a born-again, bible-believing, Christian woman, you would think that I would no longer struggle with these awful memories! But, I am, and have been many times over my past since I gave my life to Christ.

Most people think that as soon as you give your heart to the Lord, and make Jesus Christ your Savior, everything is just peachy! And I admit, there are areas of my life that were immediately thrown off of me, and I have never done them again since. But this area of my life has been a struggle; one that I hate to admit!  I am learning steps to remove the shame and guilt, but I am still a work in progress.

The definition of the word “shame” is: a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behavior.

The definition of the word “guilt” is: a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, wrong, etc. whether real or imagined.

A painful feeling of humiliation or distress. A feeling of responsibility or remorse, whether real or imagined. When these type of feelings come on so strong that all you can do is hide in shame, or cry until you have no more tears to cry, it is time to do something. Whether it’s asking for prayer, or to seek counseling, you have to do something.

I’ve done some research through the Bible to find ways to get rid of these awful feelings; and that’s what I want to cover over the next few weeks on my blog. These types of feelings can be debilitating if we don’t do something about it. So, over the next few weeks, I hope you will join me as we discover, together, what shame and guilt are; how they operate in our lives; where they come from; and how to be set free, once and for all!

One tip I will give you today is this: We, as Christians, have an enemy that does not want us to walk in victory! He does not want us to experience the true freedom that we can truly have through Jesus Christ; and he will do whatever he can to keep us in bondage, and in the chains that we have been in for far too long!

However, with that said, there IS HOPE, thru and in Jesus Christ, our Savior! Christian Sister, don’t fret another minute!  …. there IS FREEDOM just ahead for us!

Stay tuned…..